Tuesday, November 1, 2011

I am ready to spread my wings...

Free to breathe, to live, to just be me.

Gosh it’s been a journey. The struggles have been hard but as I look back at the past few years of my life I see a growth, the process of a transformation, and I wouldn’t change the struggles I’ve been through for anything because they are what have made me who I am today. I used to see struggles as something I wish would just go away, now I see that out of my greatest struggles has come greatness.

I have learned to value the gifts God has given me. I took them for granted until I lost it all and didn’t know how to get it back. Slowly but surely I feel God returning them and I am learning to appreciate them so much more since I’ve had to work for them and can now see what life was like without them.

I have learned to see myself as worthy. When I had once seen myself as worthless, without value.

I have learned to set up healthy boundaries.

I have learned to look at myself honestly and know that I will always need to change and grow.

I’ve learned people come and go, but it’s not the end of the world.

I have learned to see the world as such a beautiful place again. To breathe in life’s beautiful scent. To love people again. To break for the broken. To break free of the bondage that held me down. To know that I am lovable. To know that I am beautiful. And the outward will fade, but true beauty lies within. To forgive.

I feel as a child exploring the world again and I thank God for the ability to feel this way again. It has been a painful process, but it makes me value the little things all the more.

I am ready to spread my wings.